Against the Wall...
...but not trapped...I feel like I'm up and down...I can't seem to get right. It's not about the let down that inevitably happens after vacation...it's deeper than that. I don't know where it's coming from or how to make it stop...it's not even about the fact that I didn't have the interview that I was supposed to (though, if the company didn't call then it wasn't actually supposed to be and something better will work out...I just don't know what it is yet). I actually may have an even better opportunity come up in the next few months, which I will elaborate on as soon as I process it all. The song below is an older one, but I really love it...in fact I love the whole Lifehouse album that it came from. "Trying" fits my emotional state pretty well right now...
Trying ~ Lifehouse
Could you let down your hair
Be transparent for awhile, just a little while
To see if you're human after all
Honesty is a hard attribute to find
When we all want to seem like
We've got it all figured out
Well let me be the first to say that I don't have a clue
I don't have all the answers
Ain't gonna pretend like I do
Just trying
To find my way
Trying
To find my way the best I know how
Well I haven't memorized all of the cute things to say
But I'm working on it
Maybe I'll master this art form someday
If I quote all the lines off the top of my head
Would you believe
That I fully understand all these things I've read
I'm just trying
To find my way
Trying
To find my way
Trying
To find my way the best that I know how
Well I haven't got it all figured out quite yet but
Even if it takes my whole life to get to where I need to be
And if I should fall to the bottom of the end
I'll be one step back to you, and
I'm trying to find my way
Trying to find my way
I'm trying to find my way
Trying to find my way...
posted by Audrey @ 11:55 AM
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