One of Those Weeks
I went driving tonight...I had to get as far from myself as I could...if only for a short time. I wanted to yell and scream and be angry...not that it would do me any good. I'm not even angry...and I am long past frustrated. But there are moments (more and more fleeting) when I want to strangle Clark because I can't have what I want. I don't deal well with "no".His inability to get his life together has precluded me getting what I want...and I having the life I want to lead...the life he promised.
I'm really not as selfish as all that...I have far deeper understanding that it sounds. But mania is an interesting beast and when it rears its ugly head...one never knows what I will say...so, I drove...and as I drove I had two songs running through my head...this is one of them.
Carry On My Wayward Son ~ Kansas
{Refrain}
Carry on my wayward son
There'll be peace when you are done
Lay your weary head to rest
Don't you cry no more
Ahhhh....
Once I rose above the noise and confusion
Just to get a glimpse beyond this illusion
I was soaring ever higher
But I flew too high
Though my eyes could see I still was a blind man
Though my mind could think I still was a mad man
I hear the voices when I'm dreaming
I can hear them say
{Refrain}
Masquerading as a man with a reason
My charade is the event of the season
And if I claim to be a wise man, well
It surely means that I don't know
On a stormy sea of moving emotion
Tossed about I'm like a ship on the ocean
I set a course for winds of fortune
But I hear the voices say
{Refrain}
Carry on, you will always remember
Carry on, nothing equals the splendor
Now your life's no longer empty
But surely heaven waits for you
Carry on my wayward son
There'll be peace when you are done
Lay your weary head to rest
Don't you cry (don't you cry no more)
posted by Audrey @ 12:24 AM
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