Rainy Days
It's raining today...We're in the second week of May in Cali and it's gray and rainy. It's far drearier outside than my mood actually is today. I have decided that despite the way I may come across lately, I really am in a good place. I am happy... really and truly content. I thought about that last night as I tried to fall asleep, and I realized that I am indeed content. There are many, many things I want to do in the next few years, but really, life is good.
See here's the thing, yesterday I was whiny (as I was the day before that), there is a rationale and I'm glad I can chalk it all up to hormones. Anyway, sorry for the overshare, but at least now you know I'm not crazy, I really am just unbalanced. I allowed myself to wallow in self-pity for far too long yesterday.
I let myself get all bent out of shape because G got to hang out with JD all day on Friday. The thing is, I'm not jealous that they are friends, honestly I'm not. I guess I just got jealous because through no fault of my own, I don't get to be the kind of friend that hangs out anymore, at least not where JD is concerned. Anyway, 99% of the time it's really not an issue... I'm glad that they get to still be those kinds of friends. I even have high hopes that maybe JD and I can even get back to that.
So I decided that I am going to let go of my own pettiness. I am content and I am going to work harder to make sure that it shows on the outside. :-)
posted by Audrey @ 4:30 PM
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