Wednesday, May 31, 2006

Let The Sun Shine In

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I am in such a good mood and my spirit it so very light today. I was up until 6:30 this morning sitting in my living room catching up with Dean who was one of my best friends from high school and whom I hadn't seen since before I moved to San Diego...until last night.

As I've said before, Dean and I were inseparable my sophomore year (his senior) he was my confidante, my protector, and the person who probably knew me best...he's always had a way of looking past the surface of me and straight into my soul....and vice versa. We were each other's 3 am phone call when things got rough...we've been through a lot together.

He's always had his demons...basically if it was trouble, he was in the middle of it. But he's always had an amazing heart and while he's one of the toughest men I've ever met, he is also the gentlest.

Anyway, some stuff went down a couple months before he was to graduate and because he was already 18 the school kicked him out...I was devastated. I felt so lost...anyway, he drifted around for a while and eventually we lost touch...if ever one of us desperately need the other, we would always somehow find the other person.

Until recently, the last time I talked to him I was living in San Diego...he got ahold of my number somehow...neither of us is sure how...but he called me while I was sitting on the beach trying to hold my life together as all the pieces were spinning out of control. Dean knew, long before I told him, exactly what was going on with me.

Then, he was gone again...until about a week before I went to TN. We started talking but life kept intervening so that we didn't have a chance to actually sit down together until last night. Dean and I talked from 9:30pm until 6 this morning. We would have talked longer if my roomates hadn't been getting up to get ready for work already.

It was one of the best nights I can remember. We just picked back up as though nothing had changed between us though we are both far different people now. From the moment I saw him, I felt lighter, more at peace, I felt as though the pieces made sense again.

I've not found any man with whom I feel as safe as I am with Dean. No one else has ever made me feel quite so cared about or understood...not even Clark. As close as Clark adn I were emotionally, spiritually and mentally it was never as unclouded as it was with Dean.

Dean and I were never anything other than friends...though much of our high school would have begged to differ. But I am so thankful that I have him in my life again, even if he's only passing through. As long as Dean and his quiet spirit walk this earth I know that all things are possible.

Monday, May 29, 2006

Always Thankful

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I am always thankful for our wonderful military in this country. I try to make use of every opportunity I have to say thank you rather than waiting until a "properly designated" day. That said, I have no words to properly articulate the meaning of this day. It is all I can do to say thank you to the men and women in uniform serving our country. So, i will leave it to others who can say it better than I:

"The true soldier fights not because he hates what is in front of him, but because he loves what is behind him." ~G.K. Chesterton

"All men are timid on entering any fight. Whether it is the first or the last fight, all of us are timid. Cowards are those who let their timidity get the better of their manhood." ~George Patton

"People sleep peaceably in their beds at night only because rough men stand ready to do violence on their behalf." ~George Orwell

"There are some who've forgotten why we have a military. It's not to promote war; it's to be prepared for peace." ~Ronald Reagan

"The battle is now joined on many fronts. We will not waver; we will not tire; we will not falter; and we will not fail." ~George W. Bush

Now, go read what Ms. Joan and Ms. Beth have to say.

Friday, May 26, 2006

Soundtrack of my Life

Ok so I know I haven't been writing much of anything intensely personal or heartfelt recently. I will get back to that...but for now, here's what I've been listening question form. There is no tag here, though if anyone else wanted to share their own music choices, that would be cool. I might even learn something...Ms. Judy did this one and as a result of her answers I found the artist of a song that I can never seem to remember. (It's Edie Brickell by the way)

soundtrack - oh, sure, why not?
Body: 1-Put your music player on shuffle.
2-Press forward for each question.
3-Use some of the song lyrics as the answer to the question.
No cheating!

How am I feeling today?:
Everyday - Toby Lightman
Everything is a struggle between what I want to say and what I should keep to myself...I'll see better when the smoke clears inside my head and I'll listen when the screaming doesn't repeat everything I've said. All that remains is me and who I am at the end of the day.

Will I get far in life?:
Kerosene - Miranda Lambert
I gave it everything I had and everything I got was bad. Life ain't hard but it's too long to live it like a country song

How do my friends see me?:
Bad Day - Daniel Powter
You tell me your blue sky's faded to gray,
you say your passion's gone away
and I don't need no carrying on

Where will I get married?:
Carry on Wayward Son - Kansas
On a stormy sea of moving emotion
Tossed about I'm like a ship on the ocean
I set a course for winds of fortune

What is my best friend's theme song?:
Here is Gone - Goo Goo Dolls
And I want to get free, talk to me
I can feel you fallin'
I know it's out there, I know it's out there
And I can feel you fallin'

What is the story of my life?:
Cherish the Day - Sade
i cherish the day
i won't go astray
i won't be afraid
you won't catch me running

What was highschool like?:
Baby Got Back - Sir Mix-a-Lot
Yeah baby
When it comes to females
Cosmo ain't got nothin to do with my selection
36-24-36, ha ha
Only if she's 5'3"
So your girlfriend rolls a Honda
Playin workout tapes by Fonda
But Fonda ain't got a motor in the back of her Honda
My anaconda don't want none unless you've got buns hun

How am I going to get ahead in life?:
I Know Why - Sheryl Crow
Tell me why the road keeps turning
When everything you want is straight ahead
And every thing I thought worth learning
Is forgotten when I see your face instead

What is the best thing about me?:
Pony - Kasey Chambers
When I grow up I wanna pony
When I grow up I wanna baby
When I grow up I wanna cowboy
When I grow up I'll be a lady

How is today going to be?:
Waste My Time - Blu Cantrell
Why do I waste me time you,(why waste my time)
giving you the loving that you don't deserve
and if I had the chance to think it through
I probably wouldn't waste my time on you

What is in store for this weekend?:
High Lonesome - Jedd Hughes
It's been forever since I've seen you
The grass still isn't any greener
On the other side
Someone told me live and learn
Play with fire and you'll get burned
And i did, now, I'm payin the price

What song describes my parents?:
Volvo Driving Soccer Mom - Everclear
I think that they moved out to the suburbs
And now they're blonde, bland, middle-class Republican wives
They've got blonde, bland, middle-class Republican children
Blonde, bland, middle-class Republican lives

My grandparents?:
Charmed Life - Mike Ness
And I say, "Even in the worst of times
against all odds,
I seem to have led a charmed life."

How is my life going?:
The Good Kind - The Wreckers
You forced me to become strong
When I just craved being weak
And you think you know
And I would like to think so...
I'm tired of hiding behind these blind eyes
I'm tired of this smile that even I don't recognize

What song will play at my funeral?:
Boondocks - Little Big Town
It's where I learned about livin
It's where I learned about love
It's where I learned about workin hard
And havin a little was just enough
It's where I learned about Jesus
And knowin where I stand
You can take it or leave it
This is me, this is who I am

How does the world see me?:
Never Saw Blue - Hayley Westenra
Some things are the way they are
And words just cant explain...
And it feels like now
And it feels always and it feels like coming home

Will I have a happy life?:
So Blu - Blu Cantrell
Trying to find someone that loves me more than their bling bling
Trying to be a wife
Trying to make a life
Trying to get in touch with my spirtual side
Trying to have your back
Trying to help you stack
Trying to be your strength when you know you lack
Lord, I need a change
Lord, tell me you feel my pain

What do my friends really think of me?:
Spin - Lifehouse
And when the world keeps spinning round
My worlds upside down
and I wouldn't change a thing
I've got nothing else to lose
I lost it all when I found
you and I wouldn't change a thing

Do people secretly lust after me?:
Walking Away - Craig David
Sometimes some people get me wrong,
when it's something I've said or done
Sometimes you feel there is no fun,
that's why you turn and run
But now I truly realize,
some people don't want to compromise

How can I make myself happy?:
Luxury Liner - Jedd Hughes
If I don't find my baby now
I guess I never will
I've been a long lost soul
For a long, long time
Yeah Ive been around
Everybody ought to know whats on my mind
You think I'm lonesome, so do I

What should I do with my life?:
Let Go - Barlow Girl
Cuz Im about to let go
and live what I believe
I cant do a thing now
But trust that youll catch me
Cuz Im about to let go
and live what I believe
I cant do a thing now
But trust that youll catch me
When I let go

Will I ever have children?:
Stupid Girls - Pink
I'm so glad that I'll never fit in
That will never be me
Outcasts and girls with ambition
That's what I wanna see

What is some good advice for me?:
Lot of Leavin' Left to Do - Dierks Bentley
Girl, you look like you might be an angel,
So I wont lie.
I could love you like the devil if you wanted me to tonight,
And we could talk about forever for a day or two,
But I still got a lot of leavin left to do.

What is my signature dancing song?:
Lose This Life - Tait
Lost, so lost
Somewhere in the dead of night
Drifting like a satellite
Spinnin' out of control
But love, Your love
Is stronger than gravity
And it's pullin at the heart of me
And I'm giving in

What do I think my current theme song is?
Black Horse and a Cherry Tree - KT Tunstall
well my heart knows me better than i know myself
so i'm gonna let it do all the talking.
I came across a place in the middle of nowhere
with a big black horse and a cherry tree.

What does everyone else think my current theme song is?:
Dust in the Wind - Kansas
Now, don't hang on;
Nothing lasts forever
But the earth and sky;
It slips away,
And all your money
Won't another minute buy.

What type of men/women do you like?:
Leave it Inside - Toby Lightman
I see no need to go through the same situation
Always so complicated with these relations so I got to get away
Knowing that my heart will stray
Handling more than I can
Why the same old story again

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Thursday, May 25, 2006

Tag 6

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I was tagged by Ms. Judy so here is my list.

The first player of this game starts with "6 weird things/habits about yourself." In the end, you need to choose 6 people to be tagged and list their names. The people who get tagged need to write a blog of their 6 weird habits/things, stating this rule clearly, and tagging six more victims. Don't forget to leave your victims a comment that says "you are tagged" in their comments and tell them to read yours.

Here are my six:

1. My irrational fears include: garden gnomes, green parrots and peep holes in doors.

2. I always "kiss the roof" when I drive through a yellow light. Yes I do actually think it helps keep me from tickets.

3. I am incapable of making easy's not a snobbery issue...I really can't make it.

4. If you ask me what time it is, my brain simultaneously tells Cali time and Iraq time.

5. Sometimes my dreams are more vivid than my reality.

6. Easy listening and new age music that is supposed to relax you puts me on edge really fast...same for a lot of big band music...Limp Bizkit and Kid Rock calm me...

As for tagging, well I'm not gonna, but if you wanna share your own neurotic behaviors, I'd love to hear them.

Wednesday, May 24, 2006

Back to Cali

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I'm now back in Cali and trying to get back into the swing of life here. My trip was wonderful, emotional and over far too soon.

I spent most of the week with my grandparents. It was a relaxing and illuminating experience. G-ma and i sat and talked for hours every day over seemingly endless cups of Newfie tea. I visited with great aunts that I hadn't seen since I was a small child and a few cousins I hadn't seen for years either.

I spent my last weekend at my sister's house. It was chaotic and loud and fantastic. My little ones are getting so very big! Lil Bit is speaking clearly and and all the time now. Even Baby Gan is growing up. He talks quite a bit too. My Bana Bear is almost as tall as I am and C Man is taller than me by more than a few inches.

It was really good to spend time with George and Elizabeth as well. I hadn't seen them in way too long and as soon as the five of us (TG, James, George, Elizabeth and I) were together it was as though no time had passed.

We had a mini house party on Friday night and "Cookie got drunk at Vogue". I was mixing drinks (I introduced the boys to Irish Car Bombs) and ended up drinking a whole bottle (granted it was the smaller size) of Kahlua all by myself. Good times. I called MOH in the middle of my evening to share stories and the lightning storm.

I so love lightning storms. I'm not much for rain...but thunder and lightning definitely make me happy. I sat outside watching the lighning and the fire flies. It was wonderfully relaxing.

I have much more to say, but unfortunately no more time to say it at the moment. I will try to get caught up soon. Plus, I have been tagged by the wonderful Ms. Judy and I need to respond.

Sunday, May 21, 2006

All Me...

Ok, so I don't have time to write all about my trip right now, besides I'm still on it. ;-) More to follow. but for now, here is a survey from Rie.
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10 Favorites
Favorite Season: Summer
Favorite Color: deep purple
Favorite Time: Sunset
Favorite Food: G-ma E's cajun red beans and rice
Favorite Drink: Tan Hawaiian (Kahlua and milk)
Favorite Ice Cream: Cherry Garcia from Ben and Jerry's
Favorite Place: Ensenada or the Ferry Landing in Coronado
Favorite Sport: Football
Favorite Actor: I only get one?? Jared Leto, Nathan Fillion and Viggo Mortensen are a few of my favorites
Favorite Actress: Angelina Jolie, Lauren Graham and Audrey Hepburn

9 Currents
Current Feeling: exhausted but light
Current Drink: coffee
Current Time: 10:57 est
Current Show on tv: Not currently watching tv
Current Mobile used: Sony Ericsson (It's old...really old)
Current Windows Open: gmail and blogger
Current Underwear: army green thong
Current Clothes: low rise faded jeans, green billabong polo and brown leather flip flops
Current Thought: Do I reall have to go home tomorrow?

8 Firsts
First Nickname: munchkin
First Kiss: age 14, Lane...I don't remember where we were or why...
First Crush: JM, he is still one of the hottest boys I know.
First Best Friend: JM. We were inseparable...he asked me to marry him when we were 4 and again when we were 6...I should have just married him. lol
First Vehicle I Drove: Honda civic
First Job: nanny
First Date: is it bad that I don't actually remember?? It was with Daniel...that should count for something
First Pet: A dog named Missi

7 Lasts
Last Drink: coffee
Last Kiss: Kalohe
Last Meal: biscuits and gravy
Last Web Site Visited: gmail

Last Movie Watched: fantastic 4 with my nieces
Last Phone Call: I called my mommy to tell her congrats on her masters degree (she graduated yesterday)
Last TV show Watched: Fastlane (yeah buddy!!)

6 Have You Evers
Have You Ever: Broken the Law: I'm not answering this
Have You Ever Been Drunk: Oh yeah!
Have You Ever Kissed Someone You Didn't Know: Yes
Have You Ever Been in the Middle/Close to Gunfire: Yes
Have You Ever Skinny Dipped: Yes
Have You Ever Broken Anyones Heart: not that i know of

5 Things
Things You Can Hear Right Now: sissy on the phone, the kids playing games and the dog running around
Things On Your Bed: I don't know...I haven't seen my bed in a week
Things You Ate Today: coffee, water, biscuits and gravy
Things You Can't Live Without: LOVE
Things You Do When You Are Bored: I don't have time to be bored...but I go driving, watch movies, go see friends

4 Places You Have Been Today
I'm lame, I haven't gone anywhere yet

3 Things On Your Desk Right Now
I don't have a dest right now, but this table has pictures, a camera and a beer can

2 Choices
Black or White: Black
Hot or Cold: hot

1 Place You Want To Visit
Just one, huh? Hmmm...French Polynesia (I'm keeping this answer...I hear BoraBora is nice this time of year)

Wednesday, May 17, 2006

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Friday, May 12, 2006

Present Pet Peeves

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Oy! It's a good thing that today is Friday and that tomorrow I begin my vacation. This week at work has put way more stress on me than is healthy. This time tomorrow, I will be changing planes at LAX...a sad commentary that I'd rather be there than here. hehe. Anyway, my vacation hasn't started yet, therefore, I am annoyed. Here's a short list.

  • Idiots who drive with the tops up on their convertibles when it's 82 and sunny. (If you can't figure out what to do with your convertible, give it to me...I'll show you how it's done)

  • People who drive with their blinker on for multiple city blocks; then come to a full and complete stop before turning their compact car into a driveway designed for a semi-truck.

  • Receptionists who don't answer the phone because they are, "busy and it interrupts what I'm doing to answer the phone." (Cuz you get that option? Seriously?)

  • Loan companies that fucker up your deferment and threaten you with late charges on a loan they chose to defer

  • Grandfathers...mine mainly...not anyone else's...yet. Direct quote from mine a few minutes ago: "Your grandmother still seems to miss all you out there. It's like she can't get over it. It's really affecting her whole attitude about Tennessee." For the record, he said this in a tone of voice that implied that I oughta be sympathetic to his side.
Oy! At least it's Friday. So, what's bugging you guys today?

Wednesday, May 10, 2006

All Hail the Internet

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As Holden would say: "The Internet is a communication tool used the world over where people can come together to bitch about movies and share pornography with one another." Gotta love Jay and Silent Bob. Moving on, anyway, the last couple of weeks the internet has brought back into my life, several people that I had lost contact with.

The most recent, as in a few minutes ago, was my friend, Dean. I know I don't mention him much; but really it's because until now it was a painful subject. When he disappeared from my life (and everyone else's for that matter) it broke my heart. It's been four years since I talked to him last...until today.

First there was the requisite "OMG!! I haven't heard from you in forever" email. And then my phone rang. I didn't recognize the number, so I assumed it would be Dean. From the first "Hey" I heard, I felt like I was home. I knew right then and there that whatever happens next is immaterial...I know that everything will be ok. Just hearing his voice has always made me feel that way.

He was my protector, my security, my sounding board and my confidante. Many of the good qualities I possess today are because of him. He pushed me to be the best person I can be. He taught me about compassion and quiet strength...and he taught me to love without judgement.

When Dean disappeared from my life, it was as if the sky opened up and rain poured out onto my the clouds opened again only this time they revealed sun. This kind of light is exactly what the circle has needed for quite some time. There will be much more darkness in our future...but I no longer worry about it. I have my faith prodigal friend has come home and finally the pieces will fit into place.

Monday, May 08, 2006

Some Things

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Today I have had somewhat of a writer's block. I can't seem to order my thoughts. Being sick has kicked my lupus into high gear. That means not only is every part of my body causing me pain, but my skin is crawling on the inside. It's definitely not my favorite feeling.

Anyway, back to the writer's block. I have been reading Miss Amelie's blog for a while and I decided that she has some great of which I am going to appropriate. I hope she doesn't mind too terribly. I decided that I will share ten random facts about myself...things that many of you probably don't yet know about me. So here goes:
  1. I used to speak fluent Spanish and while i was in college I taught myself latin. I also know enough French and Hawaiian to get myself into trouble

  2. I dream in Spanish when I'm really tired

  3. Most of my friends growing up were guys. Other girls intimidate me sometimes. Guys make more sense to me.

  4. Lancers are my favorite car...if I had a million dollars to spend on a car...I would still buy a would be the Ralliart Edition though or the Evo VIII. (I don't like the new ones)

  5. I love to bake but I HATE eating whatever I have baked. I much prefer to watch others eat.

  6. I've gotten the suicide call from someone I loved. I was 15. (He's actually ok as far as I know)

  7. I got out of running stadiums in high school because I bet my PE teacher I could out bench her...I did and she didn't make me do staduims for the rest of the year

  8. I love to wear tall heels. I learned to walk in stilettos by watching RuPaul.

  9. When I was little I wanted to grow up to be either She-Ra, Princess of Power or Susanna Hoffs, lead singer of the Bangles

  10. My favorite book from childhood was “To Think That I Saw It on Mulberry Street” by Dr. Seuss…I demanded that it be read to me at least three times a day

Saturday, May 06, 2006

diamonds and guns

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"Diamonds And Guns" By Transplants

I love this damn song. Hearing the track just puts me in a better mood. I do realize that the lyrics would conflict with a happy image. But the first time I heard this song was watching Fastlane. We're talkin Peter Facinelli with guns and fast cars...yeah, it doesn't get much better than that.

Happy Saturday ya'll. Hope you had a safe Cinco de Mayo.

Friday, May 05, 2006

What I Am

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My darling Rie tagged me, so here it is.

I AM: a good friend. very articulate. stronger than I think. more stubborn than I should be.
I WANT: a job that pays all my bills in the same month. true love. kids.
I WISH: for love, happiness and good health....for everyone in my life.
I HATE: mornings. slow drivers. hypocrites. pretention.
I MISS: having breakfast with g-ma every morning. the ocean. waking up next to someone. Santanas.
I FEAR: lawn gnomes, green parrots, suffocation, losing people I love.
I HEAR: copier. Shaggy singing Angel. typing.
I WONDER: where I will be in five years.
I REGRET: nothing. I live my life without regret. I've made some bad choices in my life, but they have shaped who I am.
I AM NOT: as intelligent as my father. patient. insincere. currently in love.
I DANCE: to all kinds of music in my own home...sometimes it's just to cheer up my roomates.
I SING: all the time. to whatever is on. everywhere except the dinner table.
I CRY: when I am frustrated. when I'm lonely. when pictures of him with his daughter catch me off guard
I AM NOT ALWAYS: brave. as kind as I should be. as happy as I appear
I MAKE: people laugh. really good brownies. big mistakes. promises that I keep.
I WRITE: my feelings. advice I wish had been given to me.
I CONFUSE: myself. sometimes others.
I NEED: love. laughter. music. a strong man. to keep learning.
I HAVE: too many pairs of flip flops. a big heart. amazing friends. MOH.
I LOVE: sunsets over the ocean. driving fast. hearing men speak hawaiian. my family and friends. him, I always will.
I SHOULD: lose 15 pounds. work out more. shop less. tell the people I care about "I love you" more than I do.
I TAG: I don't usually tag people, but I would love to see what ya'll have to say. I want to see everyone's so to get the ball rolling, I tag: Amelie, Chrissy, Judy, Bette and Crazy Bastard

Feliz Cinco de Mayo a todos

y Feliz Aniversario a mi!!
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Today is the one year anniversary of Musings of an Empress. It seems like it's been a lot longer than that though I suppose it's just been a busy year.

I'm not going to ramble on about all the things that this year has brought. But, I would like to take a moment to point out all the wonderful blogs on my blogroll. Without exception, these fantastic people have encouraged me when I needed it and kicked my ass when I needed that too. Ya'll are the reason I'm still here since I rarely think I have anything of real value to say. hehe.

Anyway, thanks ya'll. And happy blogeversary to me.

Have a wonderful and safe Cinco de Mayo all!! If you're in the area, come visit me tonight, I'll probably be working.

Thursday, May 04, 2006

Oy with the Poodles

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I cannot begin to describe how tired I am of getting sick. It is beyond annoying and i don't have the time, energy or money to be sick much more this year. I got sent home from work today after two hours. Don't get me wrong, I'm thankful that my employers care whether or not i am well; but I have to work! The world doesn't care if I was ill, the bills still have to be paid. Fortunately, Jean loves me a lot and brought me soup. Yay! I am feeling better than i did this morning; but I have got to kick this fever so i can work tomorrow.

Enough ranting about that. Tomorrow is Cinco de Mayo. Not that i celebrate it as a holiday, but since i do live in Cali, there will be celebrations all around me. I may have to work tomorrow night if A gets slammed...I know they aren't bringing in any extra help for her.

My countdown for visiting Tennessee and g-ma is now into single digits. WooHoo!!! I am so very excited. And, from what i hear this trip is coming none too soon. G-ma is trying to decide how many tickets she will need in August...very strange to think about it that way. It's entirely possible that she will only need one. But as she would say, "I'm not gonna go borrowing trouble." I will just look forward to seeing them all in 9 days. :-)

Tuesday, May 02, 2006

Youth Day

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This past Saturday was
Youth Day. That means nothing to anyone who lives outside this area but if you live in a small town, odds are you have a festival very much like Youth Day. Around here, it's little more than an excuse for the entire town to be drunk in public without repercussions.

Anyway, G and her sissy were tending for A who was out of town. Youth Day is always wild and crazy so they even brought in an extra bouncer to help Kalohe out. I knew that if I wanted a spot inside the bar I had to be there early...I also figured I would need to help out if they got slammed.

And slammed we were, from 10:15 on we were packed! There were times when the line of people ordering drinks was three deep at the bar. I bar backed for about five hours. It took all of us to keep up with demeand.

It was exhausting, but fun all the same. Kinda like old times revisited. G hadn't been back to tend on a Saturday since she quit in December. The band was good. MOH, you would have appreciated the lead singer's song who did a damn good cover of Jeff Buckley's Hallelujah.

The rundown of Saturday, in numbers:

5 -- hours I worked in 4in heels

4 -- number of tequila shots and drinks spilled on me

3 -- number of men who asked to take me home

2 -- number of plastic party cups I had thrown at me

1 -- number of marriage proposals I recieved

0 -- number of glasses/cups/shots that I spilled or dropped

In reference to the men asking to take me home I have a funny story. It goes something like this: I'm working (doing dishes at this point, i had just cocktailed and had tons of glasses to restock) and there are two drunk friends sitting across from me on the other side of the bar.

Drunk #1: You're really pretty
Drunk #2: Yeah you are
Me: Aww, thanks guys. How are ya'll doing tonight
Drunk #2: We're good, getting drunk is good
Drunk #1: I wanna take you home tonight
Me: hehehe no thanks hon
Drunk #1: But I want to take you home with me
Drunk #2: Yeah he really wants you to go home with him
Drunk #1: See, I really do. You should come home with me
Me: That's sweet guys, but not gonna happen
Drunk #1: So you aren't gonna come home with me?
Me: Nope, sorry not gonna happen
Drunk #1: Then will you at least let me leave you a tip?

He left me a good tip too...but he seems to have the concept a bit backwards. But that's fine, I'll take his money. hehehe. G, Sissy and I were laughing so hard over that.

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Monday, May 01, 2006

Finding Faith

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For a friend who is struggling right now. Hang in there sweetie. It will get better. Everything will fall into place exactly as it should.

Let Go ~ Barlow Girl

Yeah I trust in you
I remember times you led me
This time it’s bigger now
and I’m afraid you’ll let me down
But how can I be certain?
Will you prove yourself again?

Cuz I’m about to let go
and live what I believe
I can’t do a thing now
But trust that you’ll catch me
When I let go
When I let go

What is this doubt in me?
Convincing me to fear the unknown
When all along you’ve shown
your plans are better than my own
And I know I won’t make it
If I do this all alone

Cuz I’m about to let go
and live what I believe
I can’t do a thing now
But trust that you’ll catch me
When I let go
When I let go

Cuz I’m about to let go
and live what I believe
I can’t do a thing now
But trust that you’ll catch me
Cuz I’m about to let go
and live what I believe

I can’t do a thing now
But trust that you’ll catch me
When I let go
When I let go
When I let go

**the weekend update will follow this evening**